A sensual kiss in the twilight

Emptiness made me do the things i didnt want to do.

Give me a kiss, and to that kiss a score;
Then to that twenty, add a hundred more:
A thousand to that hundred: so kiss on,
To make a thousand up a million.
Treble that million, and when that is done,
Let’s kiss afresh, as when we first begun.

As i smile to myself, i thought.

There are so many people in the world out there and the thing is, i still havent found a soulmate. It's really saddening because there are so many people who have found love and i still haven't. In town that day, steph and i were wondering when we saw two very obese people hugging each other. "Why don't we have a partner? We're not goodlooking but we aren't the worse ones around, so why are we still single?" Yeap, i'm rather curious too. It's really hard for me to fall in love again.

Do you understand the true meaning of being friends?

When you reach the crossroads.

Life is always full of choices. There are the simple ones like deciding what to have for dessert - baked alaska or bor bor cha cha? Then there are the slightly difficult ones like whether or not a person is true friend or not. Mostly, we choose when our instincts tells us to or when our heart feels like it but sometimes we choose only after serious thoughts. So when it comes to judging a person - especially a friend, you just have to go with your heart and hope everything turns out well. Life not only about receiving ; There's also giving.

Life is so boring nowadays. Can i not go to school please? but what else can i do?

Anyway this is the group photo taken at pw's birthday celebration.
(People supposedly in the photo but had to leave early are Ahchow, Colin & Isaac)

Emotions.

It was peiwen's birthday celebration last night and it was very fun. Anyway DONT EVER GO TO BORSCH steakhouse at srgn gardens. It is the worse restaurant i've ever gone to seriously. Their service was bad and the food wasn't really as good as thought to be. Funny thing was that i ordered the baked alaska and..... it's okay, you guys know the rest. After that, liquid kitchen was really fun. games and chats were cool.

Today, went out with jacx, van and steph for a long long time gathering. It was rather fun with all the "talking' and games that dugged out dirty little secrets. haha. im feeling kinda sick now so im going to sleep. goodnight

It's funny how some people can act the way they are.

I hope it's all just a dream.

Sometimes you just have to learn how to let go.

It's hard to show true emotions sometimes.

Stand by Me

Have you heard the song Stand by Me by Shayne Ward? Wa seriously damn nice lah. If i get married i'll definitely play that song during the first dance. Damn romantic i tell you. Well, that's if i can get married. Who wants to marry me?

Gotta be Somebody

In life, all of us at some point would feel special. Like you're here in the world for a meaning, a purpose. Then there are times when we don't feel special, like we were put in this world to make other's feel special. Such times suck. Most of us want to grow up to be somebody, somebody recognised, somebody who gives to the world and society. Today on the bus, i had the feeling. I felt that i'm someone special. I hope that i'm someone special because other than that i dont see any point why i'm in this world. Maybe i'll grow up to be a top notch fashion designer or an oscar winning director? Well at least i hope it will happen. However, i've a strong feeling that it wouldn't come true.

Why is there hatred in the world? Why can't all humans live in peace? Is there so much dislike smeared all over a person's face to cause another person to hate him or her so much?

So, today was the first lesson of Apparel Design Project. Project is to design and produce a garment well enough to take part in next years dont know what competition. Themes are smart casual, evening and others but of course, i picked evening without thinking. Skipped the 6-9 lesson and went for soccer instead. Well, at least i enjoyed myself there today. There's too much thinking now, i should stop. Oh, good news? - I no longer have 9-9 classes in jan. Instead it's 9-6.

One and only

Today was rather depressing. I slept all the way till 4.30 before waking up for school. Bus 58 is seriously damn fucked up. Anyway, i was half an hour late for class. What's worse was that i was the only one from my course! Everyone was like friends with one another except for me so i sat alone with no one to talk to for the whole time. Then, the whole lesson was about multimedia fundamentals and they were using mac. I dont understand a freaking thing. I think im so dead. This is going to be a long hard month. Okay at least i saw a hot blonde girl just now and my lecturer is the only pretty girl in my class. Eh, my lecturer is 20+ only k?

Meet Sean Faris, my new motivation.

Okay, it's 2am and we're at the crossroads once again. Just joking. Main point is... i still can't sleep! oh what a surprise...... however there're classes tomorrow so i cannot not sleep or else i'll definitely either be late, skip class or doze off in the middle of it. Hmm..... how? Days of sufferring starts officially. Break times will be spent mostly alone i suppose. So, here are the rest of the Dempsey Night photos!




Cheers to our everlasting friendship!


2 beautiful ladies

Alvin Loves his shoe so much even when it doesnt fit

Us

Dempsey Kids

Asshole

My fair lady

Alvin has to try really hard to look small in a photo with pearlyn

They SO should be together

Well, girls will be girls

Sunday, the day before end of break.

Tomorrow will be the start of my misery for the next 6 month. I think singapore is really too boring. Anyway, i found this song and i think the lyrics are sickly cool. lol. It was the theme song for some stalker movie and by a band called.. i think its "Hearme".

Obsessive Love

How long can you love someone
For me it's been quite a while.
Ever since I saw your face
Your eyes drew me towards you
like a kid to a candybar

I wanna see what you see
I wanna hear what you hear
I wanna think what you think
I wanna feel what you feel
Oh, oh, oh, oh,
Can't you feel my obsessive love for you

Every min of my life
I could hear your voice
I could see your face
You're like a movie that never stops playing in my head
I'm losing control this very minute
and i'm still thinking about you

I wanna see what you see
I wanna hear what you hear
I wanna think what you think
I wanna feel what you feel
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Can't you feel my obsessive love for you

Oh, oh, oh, oh
Can't you feel my obsessive love for you

Oh, oh, oh oh!
I'm obsessed about you!

Oh wait, you don't even know my name.

Wow, imagine someone sing the song to you.

Stressed and then Un-Stressed

So, yesterday was a rather fun day. Went to SP to eat lunch before going Cathay. No nice movies to watch so nvm. Then, had dinner before going to slack. Andy and Leo left for poker so it was left with Alv Kel Pearl Siying Peiwen and I to go to dempsey hill to chill. There was Melissa too at first but she had to go home. Chat and drink at dempsey was rather cool just that some asshole had to fall asleep. hahah. After that, decided to move on to supper at Jalan Kayu. Chat somemore then took pictures. After that, we just drove to some unknown place and slacked and mainly took pictures. Well, let the photos speak for themselves. And today, had sakae for dinner with Leo Pearl Chow Isaac before chilling at Grapevine, joined by Colin.

Jalan Kayu slackers

Our photographer was a pick-up.

Motivational forces of one another.

To the camera, the floor seems much more important than us.

Before we had the idea of flying.

1st try, alvin was the only one who did it!

1..2..3....jump! (aiya, too late liao)

OIE KELLYN!

We tried to hold hands but kellyn was so strong, she managed to pull all of us down.

Alvin looked like some big hands from the sky picked him up. Kellyn was tiptoe-ing.

Siying looks like a rocket

WALAU EH KELLYN!!!!!

When we were all about to jump, the camera caught us.

FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WE CAN FLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We were so tired, laying down in the middle of the road didnt seem so weird.

seriously DAMN FUCKED UP!!

I just woke up and i dont know what the hell did i do wrong. Saw my timetable and wow, my prayers came through. I didnt get 9-6. BUT GUESS WHAT? I GOT 12-9 INSTEAD!!!!!!!!!!! WHERE GOT SCHOOL STUDY TILL 9PM ONE?!!?!??!?!?!?! FUCK LAH. then, there is also, the worse one anyone can get. 9AM TO 9PM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. Okay, let's take a look.

Wk 27- 30

12-3 (AppDeProj)
3-6 (Break)
6-9 (Mfund)

Wk 31-34

12-3 (App De Proj)

Wk 35-38

BREAK

Wk 38-41

9-12 (EIR)
12-3 (BREAK)
3-6(AdCAD)

Wk 42-45

9-12(AdDra)

Wk 46-49

9-12(ComDA)
12-6 (BREAK)
6-9(So&Co)

WHY MY LIFE SO FUCKED UP?! I wanna quite school......................................................................

Got a one way ticket to the blues

The people who is still my fun and laughter.

The birthda boy

New kids on the stairs

Food and Fun

Food and Fun


So, i forgot to tell you about how fun the bbq last friday was. Yeap, it's been a long time since groupe had a gathering close to full attendance. The bbq was constantly filled with chatters and laughters. Such moments are timeless. Also, we celebrated Kenneth aka Soon Kueh's birthday. Soon Kueh is a very nice friend whom you dont want to mess with. hahah. Then, these few days just passed like that, meaninglessly. School's started for them and only the very few of us are still rotting at home. I really don't want to school to start. Why? cos no friends mah. hahah.

Today is a wednesday. It's 11.41pm and im freaking hellishly bored. I just woke up cos im feeling sick. Argh i hate this kind of feeling. What should i do?

Favourite

Now, i just think i should list down a few of my all-time favourite songs. That's all i can think of now.

-I don't wanna miss a thing by Aerosmith

-My heart will go on by Celine Dion, Titanic

-Believe by Josh Groban, Polar Express

-Listen by Beyonce Knowles, Dreamgirls

-Because you love me by Celine Dion

-Always be my baby by David Cook

-When you look me in the eyes by Jonas Brothers

-Hallelujah by Robin Wright

-Dear God by Avenged Sevenfold


Now for my current favourite songs.

-Lovebug by Jonas Brothers

-Thunder by Boys like girls

-Check yes Juliet by We the Kings

-Fall for you by Secondhand serenade

-When you were young by The Killers

-All summer long by Kid Rock

-Hot and Cold by Katy Perry

-A little bit longer by Nick Jonas

-When i grow up by Pussycat Dolls

-So what by Pink

Boredness leads to new things

Well, i was bored at home so i clicked BORED in firefox. This website came out and it was rather interesting. There was alot of life calculation and all and i think well, some of it is cool. There was this one whereby they asked me to draw a picture and asked me a few questions. Then they analysed that im not a happy person. lol. and theres the other one that says that if i want to make someone happy, stop trying so hard to please them. Oh, and one more says that i'm going to live to the age of 74. hahah! not bad. i was THIS bored okay? HAHAH! well, at least im a happy boy now.

Dear God

i say alot of wrong things and do alot of wrong things. I'm so unlikeable. How to be likeable? Oh i know, just keep my mouth shut for...... most of the time.

are they still able to keep me up?

Wednesday, whether or not is my life so boring.

Well, spent my day uselessly sleeping. Woke up at 2pm and did something useful though. Went to see car! Dad is changing a new car! The car is very nice okay? my dream car. Curious to know what car? Don't tell you leh. Anyway, the bad thing is that i'll have trouble controlling it because it's.. yah, bigger. After that, we went for breakfast/lunch/dinner at 5pm. After that, we went to view houses but well, either they were too expensive or not to our liking. Then, there was supposed to be movie outing but no show to watch. How saddening? So, i fell asleep till now which is 9pm. I hate the feeling of falling asleep in the afternoon and waking up in the night. I feel like drinking now.

Low, low, lower than the floor.

Life is so down now i tell you. Today has been such a bad day. In the morning, the first thing i know was that i've received 3 demerit points and a fine for $120 for illegal parking at clarke quay. Then, now i realised my gpa is only 1.8. I failed 2 bloody subjects!!! 2 okay?!?! I know i failed apparel production BUT how can i fail figure drawing? I handed every single bloody thing on time and i put in effort okay?! WTF LAH SERIOUSLY. FUCK. Next sem the course manager confirm request for portfolio interview one. Die lah.

My younger brother said dying wasn't all that easy. I have to admit that it ain't that easy. The pain you have to get through before death is rather great. Not only physical but emotional. However, i won't commit suicide. I'm not that selfish. I think that even if i were to die, i'd die for a reason. For someone or for something. I'm gonna stay in this world to see how fucked up it can get.

Hating someone is so much easier than loving someone.

I want to be weird.

Dreams are my Reality

It ended well. My heart felt the twist but hey, im used to it anyway.

Seeing you like this makes me feel bad. How i wish i have all the solutions to your problems. I just hope everything will turn out fine. It's 5.18am and i have no idea why i'm typing all these.

Mr D, why are you in the picture?

I'm not really in the right mind to type anything now. Goodnight

Oh, before i forget. The guy in the picture below damn hot lah! I think he is gay judging from his friendster and the way he takes photos. Nah, i'm not that gay to go for him. However, his picture is here because i wanna show you the look that i've always wanted. Yeah, this kind of face, If only i had it.

Stand still, don't sway.

Maybe i don't have a backbone. It's utmost sadness today.

Regrets are never bitter for me.

In my whole life, i have many regrets. However, i think that regretting is just a part of your life. Regrets are there for you to look back to and learn. It's okay if you fall because as long as you know how to get up and not fall the same way, you're growing.

These few days i haven't been at my tiptop condition. I did alot of things wrongly and i try my best to alter it but well what has happened had already happened. I always give in to others and try to be the best i can be. However, i've realised that i'll never be good enough and i'm very tired of trying. It's tiring to change your character but it's even more tiring to wake up everyday constantly hating yourself. However, i love the people that i change for and i'm afraid that they would'nt like me because of my character.Life is at a down point for me nowadays. My mum told me today that i've changed alot though, she says i speak differently and i do things differently. She thinks i've changed for the worse. Why? I don't want that to happen. I want to change for the better, i want to be the best i can be for everyone.

Fucked up shit. I hope i'll find a solution soon. Just ignore this post if you happen to come across it. I just needed to say something.

I'll never leave you hanging.

I never get enough, i never do. Life is so boring when you just don't live it well for one day.

Is it all about giving in?

This morning, leo,andy,alv&i the steadys went to the airport to send pearlyn off to taiwan. She'll be there on a holiday for 4 days so it will mean sadness for the 4 of us. She is like our hang out clique now lah and not to mention weiting who despite school days still took the time to hang. The 4 of us hadn't woke up so early for such a long time already. After sending her off, we went to leo's house to slack and view past photos. Much laughters and memories were triggered by the photos. After that, alvin and andy had to go out with their family so i decided to go home to tidy up the house. Mum and sis coming back remember?

However, i finished doing everything since 4.30pm. I even had time to order in MacDonalds. It's 6 already and i'm really really really bored. Just finished buying 4d and soccer bets with jialong. Now, there's nothing much on tv. Oh my, what do a bored man do?

I've also figured out that a post without pictures isn't really exciting so here are some random shots.