A classy little dinner

Today was the usual gym-ing session. After that andy,alvin,leo,pearlyn,weiting and i went for dinner at mount faber. It was a fine dining restaurant, the food was expensive so of course the ambience was really great. We felt so uneasy because we had to talk softly and laugh softly. lol. After that was chilling at liquid kitchen for awhile before going home.

I'm glad to see my friends so happy. I hope they stay that way for a long long while.

For a long long while, i havent had such a feeling already. Confidence level is really down, not to say i have much to start with anyway. 2nd thoughts, 2nd thoughts.

Mum and sis is coming back tmr. Part of me wishes that sis stays there longer because i'm really used to having a car. Why? why am i not fucking rich?

All in? nah, probably not.

Today was fun, a little costly but fun.

Well, i've been spending alot of money recently. Too much actually. I told myself last month that this month would be different but still, it's the same. Okay, the month of october will be saving money month!

I think i'll give it a try. It's been a long time since i had this feeling. I hope i will succeed.

I'm afraid that you'll be angry, i always do.

A night of reminiscence

okay at least i had a day well spent. Anyway, just saw the video of "Hello Everybody". It's a video that we groupie took during the genting trip whereby we imitated siying. Everyone was trying to follow the exact same actions and words she said. It was really cool. I kind of miss that now. Things dont happen the same way twice. At least we had it once.

Well, should i or should i not? Dont think i have a chance.

when even i find it difficult to cry in my heart

At times i feel, as if love never occured in the world. Well, maybe for others but not for me. Probably yes but i just don't think it's the right kind of love.

For many years, i had this feeling. Everyday, now and then i think about you. No matter what happens, i just want you to feel happy. However, this can't be love. It's wrong if this is love. I don't think it's love now, i just think it's a different feeling. I don't really know what i'm typing now but yeah, bottomline is, my friends are the only thing that matters to me now.

I think that sometimes i'm a little bias or probably too bias. I'm only nice to the people i want to be nice to and push away anyone else. It's bad i know but i can't help it. It's just me.

Alvin is away in thailand and yeah my soulmate is away. He is a guy lah so yeah, we're not going to be together if that's what you're thinking. Which now reminds me of something, other than alvin, there's siangheng. We used to hang out everyday but now, there's a distance. I'm not sure whether he'll be reading this but anyway, i think that he is also my soulmate. We don't have to see each other everyday but once we do, this friendship connection is just there, it's very hard to break it because it's rather solid. I have to admit i'd prefer to hang out with alvin and gang more than him but i know he'll understand because we do have a little social gap but no matter what, soul mates are bound to be soul mates. :)

Other than that, i still have the twins i grew up with. Roy and Vian. We have a different kind of connection. It's like we're supposed to be siblings. We can not see each other for 10 years but you just now that you're still part of each other's life in some way. Well, at least that's what i think.

This is why i tend to have little friends. I want to give my best to my friends, no matter how little they are. It's such connections that carry you through life. Now that i've poured out my heart, i feel much better. Time to entertain kellyn WEE :D

Yesterday was a fun night with them, pearlyn,kaixin,weiting,KELLYN, leonard,andy &alvin. And also do rei me fa so la ti do. Today was also a cool chilling night with those mentioned above and some others like isaac,stanley,cheefai &peiwen. Other than KELLYN the bloody woman. Hahah. Okay, that's all for now. Goodnight.

If i told you i love you......................................not you, you.

All dressed up

It's 4.41pm now, i'm all dressed up and ready to go out. Oh wait, i don't have anywhere to go.

Even if you know it never will, you just continue.

It's been 2 days since we came back from hongkong. Although there was nothing really exciting about hongkong, i still really enjoyed the trip. Of course, it has to be because of the people that i went with. They are the fun-nest people you can ever hang out with. Every moment spent is preciously savoured. So, airport check-in followed by breakfast. It was kinda weird when all the parents were eating together. After that, andy's dad suggested that we take a group photo. Hahah, weird moment i tell you but still, it was nice lah. Then we went in and all the parents were waving together and yeah, kids going on a trip themselves.

Gate C17, our dear friend pearlyn's number. We boarded the small plane and off we went to hongkong. Arrival at the airport and we took a transfer to the hotel. It is kinda costly and it's actually my fault. Hotel was the same as last year when i went with mum. While waiting for linking rooms, we had lunch and andy and alvin went for a haircut. haha, andy's one turned out well but i wouldnt say so for alvin's. So, got into our rooms and the rooms were in fact, really wonderful.

Then the days just went pass. There were the shoppings whereby we didn't buy much, the typhoon that stopped our day activities. Well, while everyone was rushing home, the 5 of us were like idiots, making fun of the typhoon, taking pictures and walking around slowly. Hahah. The last day came as swiftly as the first. Arrived in singapore late cause the plane was delayed. It was already 1am and our parents were all waiting patiently outside. Home sweet home.

The next day, had to go to the airport again. This time, it's to send my mum and sis off to korea. This means i got car!!! hahah. So, went to clarke quay with the guys and girls and had a night with a little too much to drink.

I felt so lousy at the coming end of the night but well, thanks, you made it better. Now, i just want to be friends.

I think this photo is kinda weirdly cool :)
Late night poker sessions
Shopping at Tsim Tsa Tsui
Alvin is all so ready to fight but wait, he needs to watch his back. (btw,its bruce lee at the back)
The prettiest boy in the world.

Bus trip to hotel! sorry guys, wasted your money
andy is reaaalllyyy excited about hongkong
alvin is all smiles despite the little space
Mrs and Mrs Goh being all hyped up
Board the plane liao, gate C17. of course, pearlyn came to our mind.

shi liu san, my favourite dessert place in the world
some asshole said " ahh the beef noodles here very nice!" hahah
alvin's coming out of the closet
shocked that it's a fitting room?
they cut their hair on the first day. nice?

escalators are fun
andy's cancerous foot
seriously, mind your head
mmm gwoi sai
mongkok shoppers

shopping for amelia
alvin's favourite shop
while everyone was rushing home
where do we go now?
simply delicious

alvin loves bad stuffs

well, thats just leonard
the umbrella boys
alvin's feel of fame
hk night

HK TRIP

Andy is still a little kid at heart.
Arrival for Departure.
Stickers and zombie
Dim Sum Morning
Bloody bastards refuses to wake up (other than leonard)

photo uploadin is freaking slow i tell you.

Hongkong de hongkong.

I'll be going to hongkong in approximately 10hours. I'm going with my wonderful friends and i hope i'll have a great time. As usual, the before leaving country sickness is back. However, this time it's less irritating probably because i'm going with people i enjoy. Take care guys, i'll be back soon :) World peace and happiness!

if i kissed you, will fireworks fly

I enjoyed myself yesterday, i hope i'll enjoy today. Hongkong trip is coming and i'm excited. How cool, cool. Hope that it's going to be fun.

I know i'm hanging but i still want you

I'm having one of the worse body aches in my life. This really really sucks. I didnt sleep last night and went to school for mock presentation and it's damn sucky because i felt like sleeping the whole day long.My braces is giving me problems, BIG problems. I feel sucky now. sadded

Monay no enough

I used to think that i would never ever experience the feeling of having no money. I had thousands in my bank account and now, i'm only left with 6 dullahs. Well, i can only blame myself for spending so much in the recent past. At least i'm glad that i worked for Colgate; I'm going to receive my 900+ salary soon! and i have to spend it with great care. For now, im so tempted to go back to the old road. easy money.

Hello and goodbye

Yesterday was such a wonderful day and today is such a fucked up day. I'm wondering, why?

Ski- ski- hee

Today, the excitement just hit me and i woke up at 6.17am. How cool? Bathed and packed my bag before heading to the mrt station to meet up with andyleoalvin. Harbourfront centre breakfast and beehoon sucked. Took the ferry and i actually like the ferry. Reached the place and realised it's actually very different from what i'd imagined. The place was rather cool ; Didn't know batam had 91.3fm. So, we settled down and changed before going for the briefing. Out of 10, only 1 cable-ski-ed before and out of 100, only 1 girl was around. No, there was'nt a hundred of us, only about 40.

Did a round of the knee board and succeeded on first try with andyleo. Alvin sadly, didn't. Then we tried the one whereby you have to stand up. We all failed a few times. Andy got it like a pro and could complete at least a round. Leo got it too, had difficulties turning but could at least make half the round. Alvin and i, tried for several times before still not succeeding. However, we did not give up. By the end of the day i could reach the ramp, which is about a quarter. Alvin could get past the stairs by a little, which is beside the starting point. lol. Sad thing, both alvin and i didn't get to ride the bike. hahah. At the end of the day, Andy and i got sunburned, Alvin nearly died and most of us have difficulties moving our fingers (except "muscular" leonard). Even as im typing now, i'm surprised my aching arms could still come up with so many words.

Well, to sum it up, i just have to say i really very much enjoyed my day. Goodnight :)

What goes up must come down.

These few days have gone past really fast. I still don't regret any decisions i've made. Hongkong trip is coming. I'm excited. Just slept for 12 hours and its 1am now. I'm not tired at all already. shit.

I do it for you

For me, i personally feel that friends should give in to one another. Make spaces for each other. If you know me well enough, friends are very important to me and i prioritize them.

It's my turn now.

I really have to think, if you're wearing a mask. You think that you're the only one playing the game? To think that i've once said so much nice things about you before. You really disappoint me.

I dont wanna miss a thing

Suddenly, i feel that i've changed alot. Now, i think i can't communicate as well with girls as i used to. I don't feel comfortable being around groups of girls. I get irritated by songs that are too slow, eg. phantom of the opera. Is it good or bad?

I think, i can't live without alvin in my life. Shit man sounds gay. Eh friend, can come back from genting today?

Dear God, the only thing i asked of you

I always ask myself, is it worth it to risk so much? The answer is still yes, i would risk all of it for them.

Somethings are unpredictable

Sometimes, i think i'm so good. I always anticipate movements by people, always wary of their thoughts and protecting myself. This is why i don't make friends easily. However, i turn around and realise there's actually already a few knives pointed at my throat. Yet, i think i'm the one pointing the knive at myself. What is all this about ?

Why can't you just lie to me and tell me that you love me?
Even though i know it wouldnt happen but wouldn't it be nice just to hear you say the words.

Yeah, i think i still love you

it's 2.42am now and i tried sleeping since 12am. The feeling sucks. My chest feels alittle painful. I want tmr to come soon. Goodnight.