I'll be yours, till the end of time.

For my darling, i love you and i'll always will.

I always have to decipher certain things myself. Now, i really have to start choosing. Everytime i blog, i don't really know what im saying. It's 4.02am now. I've got classes tmr. Today was a rather good day though.

Hey girl, when will we ever be together?

High, how high?

I think i'm running a little too quickly on the road, running in a direction that i have no idea benefits me or not. I really have to review and think about it, am i enjoying myself so far ? The past few months are really different. I think i've transformed into a person that i'd never ever imagine myself to be. I guess i have to stick with my motto for life : Life is about making mistakes and learning from them. As long as you're enjoying yourself, keep on going.

Tonight had been fun for me. Currently, i have no place to sleep on and it's 2.05am alrd. I'm really feeling bored and sleepy. I shall use this time to think about what i'm lacking in life. I also have to remind myself to start saving and stop spending. Guess what? I only have $30 left in my bank account. This account had $1.8k during march. I'm rather shocked myself.

Do i love you as much as i think i love you?

paranoia

ahh shit. you're the only one who can do this to me

I miss you but no one's ever gonna know.

12 lotus is such a loser and depressing show i tell you. It's 1.30am now and i'm feeling depressed. Now, my heart is in a fluster. This question just popped up in my head. What if i never found true love before i die? Oh shit man, like that is jialat one.

I like it when i close my eyes, it's because like this i can fantasise,
you and me standing side by side, watching the beach from dawn till dusk.

At least, it's the last day of colgate tmr! im so darn happy. My mind is kinda in a mess now so i shant blog further. Goodnight.

The clouds are above my rainbow now.

Shit, just realised i lost the file that contained all the work that i've done for the past one month. Now, i have to finish it together with alot of other work by this friday.How cool is that?

Sunshine, oh sunshine.

Eh, what is "hua yu?" - the serious side - sunshine - "eh dont push! serious one, dont play!"

Okay, It's sunday again so it means 3 weeks of august is down, 1 more to go. Well, school has been rather stressful and i really dont want to elaborate. However, it's the nights spent with wondeful friends that enables me to wake up everyday to continue my life. Indochine was nice, photoshoot was cool, reservoir talk was unexpectedly soothing and occasional lunch and dinners are the sex. Here are some of the photos from the photoshoot. They seriously make me roll around laughing.

I believe in something called love.

Despite feeling so fucked up, my life still continues. I guess i'm really borned to be a sunshine boy. I always look on the bright side. For a person who likes the rain, it's hard to really bring me down. When i'm feeling down, i'll go right up once i think about my friends. Yeap, friends are my main source of supply for happiness. Please don't take my friends away.

No storm or flood can move my love for you. Wait, who are you?

Woke on the wrong side of the bed.

I'm in school now. It's a damn fucked up day. I woke up at 8.45 when class starts at 9. I quickly bathed and left the house. Wanted to drive but i wouldnt be able to get back home in time cos i have a lot of things to do. So, when i reached the lobby, 58 just left. This means that i have to wait for another 36mins before the next bus comes. I thought to myself it's okay. So, i walked to the bus stop. Now, all of a sudden a bus appeared and it looked like 58 so i decided to run using the strength i have in the morning to chase after the bus. So, i reached the bus stop and when i turned around, it was a bus in training. God, i must look really stupid. Nvm, counted the money in my wallet and decided to use the money i saved in the previous week to take a cab. Reached school at 9.45am and the cab fare cost $14. Went to the class and guess what? No one's there. Checked my mail in the com lab and there wasnt anything about cancelled classes. Saw a fellow classmate and she said that there aren't any classes. WTF. what is fucking wrong with the lecturer? FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

Currently in a very bad mood. It's really hard to think about what can cheer me up now.

Blinding Depression

It's not that i want to feel this way but everything has it's reasons. This is such a damn fucked up feeling and i really wonder if i'm the only person feeling it. I try my best to ignore it but it seriously can't be ignored. Why? Why can't i choose where i'm borned, how i'm borned and the character that i have? The worst thing is not to hate another person, the worst thing that can happen is to hate yourself.

I try my best to be the best but what is the best?

When the rain is blowing in your face, when the whole world is on your case. I can offer you my own embrace, to make you feel my love.

Please, i dont want the blues.

I have to keep my smile

As much as i want to sleep, i just want to take note that i'm just feeling fucked up now. The feeling is so darn annoying, really annoying. Work, so much work to do. So many things to think about. Fuck lah.

My only surviving hope is that i'll be able to see my friends. My life is built on my friends and i think it's damn true. Please don't poke the little bubble in my head.

Fuck. I hope the cloud above the rainbow disappears.

Steady hands, just take the wheels

Okay, there are so many things to say but you know, im not very good at words. Hahah. Anyway, i've got way too many things running in my mind now.

PROJECT - i am seriouslyDAMN fucked up now lah seriously. shant elaborate.

WORK - i just realised this job really not easy. Every fri,sat & sun leh. 10 hours. I first time talk so much till my gum suffer from abrasion, now hurting like hell and my feet also hurts damn alot now lah.

I have to constantly tell myself - stress is something you give yourself.

Still, that night was so darn fun.