A new start that never comes

I've always hated the new year to come. It always reminds me that i've wasted another year of my life, reminds me of the years left of me i the world. Every single year, i'd tell myself to change. I'd tell myself, maybe in the next year, someone will like me, maybe next year i'd probably look better & maybe next year, i'll like myself. However, the year just never comes. Everything i write here, i just can't say it to anyone in the face because i've got a feeling they just don't give a damn. This is why this blog exists; For me to type things i can't say. I really hope that the year of 09 would be a successful one.

I believe in Karma, i really do.

You jump, i jump

Went home in the morning. Went to fetch andy yesterday and his ears are still intact. Went to slack and got 2 road blocks in 15mins. Road blocks are cool.

Just watched Titanic this afternoon. I still think it's a damn cool movie. The part when Jack tells Rose not to let go made me cry. Yes, i cried. It's a great love story. Will i find someone like that?

Went to someone's birthday party just now. Met up with old friends. I realised that my world isn't fun when the right people are not there. I'm feeling quite bored now because it's only 1am and ive been going home at only 4+ for the past one week.

Do you want to be the one without love?

All of a sudden, i remembered that school is going to start next week. No, not the day after tomorrow. Well, i really really really don't like classes to start.

Andy and leonard are still snowmanS. Oh, andy should be at the beijing airport now as he is supposed to reach sg at 9.35pm. leo still has 2 days to go.

I'm currently watching MTV. Top 100 songs of 2008. 3rd was Disturbia while 2nd went to With You. It's the advertisement now and my mum nearly switched channels.

I'm having frustrating thoughts for the past few days, i don't know what's wrong and that's the problem. I received a late christmas gift from alvin and it was a ben sherman tee. Thanks man.Okay and the top song of 2008 went to Bleeding Love. Do you agree with MTV? I'm currently sitting at home waiting for time to pass. 2008 is coming to an end and it means a new beginning is coming. I'm not going to give myself any new year resolutions because it never happens. However, i really really really need to pull myself together (or rather my wallet) and start saving. 2008 has been a year of partying, driving and drinking. Such things are very costly okay? So for 2009, it's going to be just Jim Beams and Coke.

All i want for christmas is you

On the 23rd, i had a christmas party that i was proud of although i think it could have been much better. The party was rather fun for me and i hope it had been fun for everybody. Presents exchanging was okay this year i think. After the party, we went to yishun demp and sang songs while isaac and kenneth played the guitar. Then it was supper at PNL before everyone headed home. It was a fun night.

On the 24th, isaac and i went around shopping for last minute gifts before meeting my family and siying peiwen alvin to go fetch jialong from the army. Went for dinner then went home. All of a sudden, i had the worse tummy ache ever in my life and it was really unbearable. It kinda spoiled everyone's mood for christmas and they left for gardens to celebrate while i went to the doctor's. Assholic doctor charged me 80 dollars. He said it was gastric infection. Ate my medicine and slept till today.

25th, today. Woke up and found 2 presents by my bed. One of them from my mother was a Chanel Cologne. Happy and disappointed at the same time. The other one was a T-shirt from FCUK from my cousin. Well, i would have been really really happy if someone just got me the The Dark Knight dvd with Joker at the front or any other dvds.... oH well, at least i got presents.
Anyway, i rate this the worse christmas ever in my life. thank you very much.

WARNING, do not visit pearlyn's blog if you are allergic to ultra sweetness. After reading her blog, it just made me feel worse because her life seems so wonderful now. hahah oh well woman! No need to listen to one side only liao! :)

Merry Christmas to all of you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

When i see your face, it makes me smile, it makes me smile.

I tried running but i wasn't fast enough, troubles would aways catch up with me. I'm only 19, is there really that much for me to be responsible for? Why can't the world be just full of rainbows and happy people?

I wouldn't want to think that i'm close to you because i think you'd just turn away in just a second.

I want a dog, i want it badly. A dog would be nice, to accompany me through the lonely times, to lend a listening ear, to hug and to show care and concern, to give me it's fullest attention at all times. I don't want just a dog, i want a friend.

It doesn't happen only anually.

Last Saturday was the annual 'Groupie' Annual Dinner. The afternoon was spent at isaac's house making something for jialong. Isaac edited the photos, i cut them and peiwen pasted them. lol. Then B&J's chunkfest damn boring lah. Then the dinner. Of course, there were much fun and laughter. Let's allow the pictures to speak for themselves.

From Groupie, to Jialong for Most Contributive Award.

Dinner

Fish & Chips

Alvin, we sabo jl okay?

Hahah! Alvin got punked too!

This moment's cost : Priceless

Our Beauties

Our Beauties

Now, Let's start partying!

Alvin is surely having fun! So are first time clubbers Jl & Dru

Dancefloor? Okay!

While leo and sac was battling it out with 5,10,15

Kel and Jin snuggles up!

Resting time, Legs are tired okay

Not the kind of party for you?

Well, i see you guys love it

I... wanna rock and roll all night!

Siying and Peiwen, first time clubbing!

Alvin showing us the dance moves

Siying: "Aiyoh, cannot lah, how to do that move?"

Forget it, Let's do it our own way!

Kellyn: "We own the dance floor!"

The last party shot!

Last but not least, our group photo.:)

How wonderful life is now you're in the world.

Life has been kind of great nowadays. I've been living the life without worries, no future and no responsibilities. Everyone of my friend has been fun and great, couldn't expect more from them. I hope that i can live life the way it is for a long long time. Then and again, there are the fears and the thoughts. Oh and also, it isn't my holidays yet. I still have to go for classes tomorrow and thursday before my class really ends. Please let me complete my project fast so that i dont have to go school on thurs.

Why do i always fall for the wrong person?