Go on and take a bow.

The past days have been a little hectic, havent been feeling very well, couldnt sleep every night and food always looked disgusting. Today, went to view another house, we were so close to buying the penthouse but the developers suck so much, the house couldnt belong to us. Saddening.

I thought that i was your friend, someone who at least have a stand in someplace. Haven't i been nice enough, haven't i give in enough? There is only so much i can give, i hope it's just a misunderstanding.

Not Teen Anymore

I'm 20 already. Come to think of it, i'm actually considered old. 20 and i haven't acheived anything great. I still don't like the way i look, the way i talk and the way i behave. For 20 years, i've been living as someone i dislike. Is it all going to change when the big 20 comes? I hope so. Anyway, i've got to thank the special few who made my birthday a unique occasion with 3 celebrations on 3 nights. Thank you very much, my life would really suck without you.

Hear the wedding bells ring.

I've been stressing myself out with projects that are due way too soon but i believe that there's a plus point for everything and for this, one of the many plus was that since my research topic was "Bridal", i found many amazing photos.

1 will never be 2

And at a time like this, you have to hit me so hardly.
I can no longer see any road in front of me , i think it's the end.
Can anybody, just anybody, shine a light for me
just to show me where to go,
because i think i'm lost, i'm really lost.

I call you my bestfriend because i believed that you trust me like i trust you, i call you my bestfriend because you'll have my back just like i have yours, i call you my best friend because i believe you would never be angry with me just like i won't be with you, i call you my bestfriend because you are the best of all my friends.

20 and below

Dear God,
Please let my friend alvin pass his driving test tomorrow,i need him to drive me around so that i don't need to spend on petrol and i promise i'll drive with more care if you let him pass.

XOXO. G.G

"He's not a mouse, he's my brother"

Today, 11th or March is the actual date of my brother's 21st birthday. Oh well, happy birthday. He is celebrating it this saturday at Suburbia Sentosa, it's a rather grand place and it costs a bomb. I wonder how am i supposed to top that. I helped out with the guest list and table/seating arrangements. I realised it's quite a difficult job especially when there's limited seats. Only 75 guests allowed but i squeezed in 80. It's really really tough okay? Hahah, good day.

Lost, never found.

I tried to tell myself a lie, i told myself that i won't ever be alone.

The lesser the love, the lesser the pain.

Money is Power.

Love yourself, no one else.

You can't play on broken strings.

Waiting for other's sympathy is not an option.

If you don't eat the burger, the burger will eat you.

When the night falls and the cold wind blows on your face,
you tell yourself that everything is okay
When the lightning strikes and the thunder roar,
you're hoping that somebody will say

Hey little child, don't be afraid
i'll keep you warm despite the cold rain.
Hey little child, you're not alone
i'll be here to sing you a song

I dont really know what's in my mind, actually i do, i just dont feel like telling anyone. Or rather no one really cares. Oh well, nevermind.

Nothing's really about me.

I had fun on both fri and sat. It was a blast hanging out with people like them. Sun was also cool because i got to hang out with the 3 people who basically are main characters in a little childhood story. Roy,Vian & Lsh. Alvin joined us for dinner at chomps too but too bad he had to leave early.

However, there are always the sucky part and for me, it's that i'd still have to wake up early tmr and go for class and then only going home at 6 in the evening. The thing is that, i dont have a holiday and im not even freaking going for itp lah. fuck man, seriously. Block teaching is seriously short term helpful and long term damaging. Well, at least for me. I'm starting to lose interest in this course already. They dont do what i love to do, they dont teach what i want to learn. I want to learn how to make dresses, not to learn how to communicate design arguments or sourcing and costing. It's just my interest to learn how to make dresses, im not going to be in the freaking fashion industry lah. Okay, the more i complain, the more fucked up i feel. Fuck school.

That very night, i just wanted to feel what its like to be the one to throw tantrums, have moodswings and see how you'd react to it. Apparently, no one gives a shit.