Touch my hand

Life can be so depressing sometimes. When all the problems in the world starts to appear, usually, you have your family and your friends. When you can't turn to any of them, it will so saddening. Oh well, i just have to learn to love myself.

It never crossed my mind that you would be like that.

Social-lies

Last night, i attended a function held by the Singapore's Poultry Merchants Assocciation with my father. I was seated beside a Dr Wong, head of something something from the AVA and the rest of the table was filled with unknown big shots of Singapore's poultry industry. It felt awkward at first but soon, we started talking. We talked about the singapore education system, national service and who was taking over who. Glasses were filled and the "uncles" just needed to see if they were still young at heart so they decided to drink with me. Most of the times when they talked to me, i couldnt really hear them or understand them but i still would manage to keep my smile on and do the once in a while nodding. Then i thought, wow, this is socialising. I seem to have done it before.

Yes, if we thought about it, our lives has nearly been about socialising with anyone and everyone. Friends are merely called friends because you see them more oftenly. How many of the people you call friends actually care for you? They will know you for years but you will just realise they don't understand you at all. You are just people that meet oftenly to gossip and chat about current issues. So how do you differentiate the people who socialise with you and those who really are your friends? Well, friends are the people who are real, tell you the truth and would always be there for you. Let's end social-lies.

Is it wrong to be selfish for once

Of all the times i try to help i always screw it up. This goes to show that my intelligence level is too low for me to do something good. Maybe i should stop trying to be nice since people just take it them i'm being fake or has something up my sleeves.

Both of you are my friends, i didnt want to see any side getting hurt. He is my best friend, you are my good friend. My mistake was being unable to balance the pain right.

I always tell people, life is too short to be anyone else. Follow your dreams. However, ive come to realised that ive forgotten to remind myself. I can no longer follow my dreams and i definitely can't be myself. When people tell you to be honest, never ever be honest because they will still end up hurt. The problem with the world is that they always want to hear nice and sometimes fake things so that they will continue to live in a lie and be happy. Until one day when they realises that the lie they've been living has been broken then they start to panic. By then, it would all be too late. Ahh fuck, life can be depressing.

Though anyway, remember that the amount of stress and pressure you have is the amount you want to take in. Remember, it's want. You can choose to remove unwanted stress and pressure or block them out of your head. Only you yourself can give what you yourself want to give.

Ooohhooohh.

There's just something about this picture that is just so attractive to me. Hahah. Oh well nvm. Anyway, i don't really have much to say just that i think my life is so boring nowadays. I need all the drama i can get. I guess it's time to quarrel with someone again. This time, i should pick someone interesting enough. Have a wonderful night and can i have my chardonnay?

Three is a crowd.

I think i'm used to being alone or rather i kinda like it nowadays. Having a quiet life for a change can be really wonderful, humans are way too complicated for me to handle. In just nearly a year,both happiness and sadness have been thrown into my life in large quantities. I don't have time for a break so i guess i'll just have to manage my time well. Have a good night's rest people, enjoy your "present".

And you did it.

You made a bigger mistake. Guess what?

Hands up in the air, the cool breeze in your hair.

Because writing is writing and reading is reading, questions are questions and answers are answers, reasons were reasons and lovers were lovers.

I thought it didn't matter anymore.

Wouldn't it be nice to have friends who call you in the middle of the night on a fri/sat night to ask you out for a drink or maybe have a go at the clubs? Yes, it will be nice. Call yourselves club kids and have fun.

When everything is given to you, it's hard to prove your worth, if nothing is given to you, it's harder to prove your worth but if you give nothing at all, just don't bother.

All of a sudden, you seem so distant to me.

Yellow and purple stuck in a circle.

I've chosen the solution, to remove myself from the outside world. Ohh wait, did i remove myself or was i removed? How did it happen? It must have been me, the problem, the only problem has to be me. Where are you? The Angel from my Nightmare.